The Peace I Found Outside the System

Spirituality occupies the very center of my life. It’s as vital to me as food, air, and water. It is not something I practice as a ritual or through affiliation with a religion—it is something I live. Though I was brought up in a Catholic family, over time I began to feel that there is a deeper, more intimate truth in the teachings of Christ than what is often presented in churches. The essence, I believe, has been buried under layers of doctrine, structure, and increasingly, commercialization.

My path is one of seeking the real God—not the one confined by religion or ritual, but the one who lives within, beyond name or form. God, to me, is love. Pure, unconditional love. That is the heart of what Jesus taught: love, compassion, forgiveness. Yet somewhere along the way, the simplicity and power of his message got lost.

I am seeking liberation—from religious formalities, from worldly expectations, from the inner chains of ego, jealousy, craving, and fear. Jesus said, “Unless you become like little children, you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.” That resonates deeply with me. A child loves without condition, trusts without fear, lives without judgment. A child doesn’t strive to control or possess. That state of innocence, peace, and freedom is what I aspire to.

This path I’ve chosen isn’t easy. It demands deep self-inquiry, discipline, and relentless inner work. But it is also the most rewarding journey—one that brings real peace and joy, untied from outcomes or opinions. I no longer worry about what will happen, or what others think of me. My focus is on becoming inwardly free, deeply loving, and fully present.

By this, I don’t mean that I reject the material aspects of life. I do need money, a home, and work to live—just like anyone else. But I do not want to cling to them, I simply enjoy and appreciate whatever is given to me in this moment, and whatever may come in the future. I try to hold everything lightly, with gratitude and trust, rather than fear and attachment.

This kind of spirituality liberates. It strips away the unnecessary and brings me closer to the Truth, to God, and to myself.